ive lost my memory

what should i do i cant remember 1 year of my life when i was around 15.

there is a big story behind it just dont wanna bother with it (its veryy long)

i was thinking about seeing a hypnosist.

i realized i lost the memo in 2003 when i saw a video with me in it.

oh p.s. it was all filmed in a video which i cannot get for unknown reasons YET. it showed everything what happened and all.

i wonder what the hell is it in the background.